June 8,2007 (around 10:30am), a sudden news came - he's dead. Kuya Jun have left his earthly body and have joined Tatang after 17yrs the senior and the junior have reunited again. The news was so sudden everyone who heard of it were totally shocked. he wasn't telling much about how he felt (if any) except for the itsy bitsy pain in his chest the past week. He would dab the "Manaoag oil" we brought home.
Yes, it was sudden but according to some friends and relatives he have left signs that he would be taking his journey on the other end. He was asking people questions like, "Pare, pag namatay ako pupunta ka ba?" "(on the funeral/burial of his friend in 2006 he uttered) Next year ako naman".
His life with us wasn;t that pleasant we would always feel bad about him because of his drunkenness and him being jobless. I am guilty of that myself. We'd always argue about that silently. There were times I know I've instilled the some pain in his heart but I am positive that he understands why. My condemnation of things may seem for me not to care for him but the later years of his life as people we both love have drawn us together. Karen and Ima have been a big part of the closeness we developed few months before his death. He would sentimentally say how much he appreciates how I pawned my cellphone just to bail him out of jail when he got into trouble December 2005. He knows that I'm the type who would do things that I mean, say what I mean no matter how much I try to be plastic I unintentionally become sincere with my acts.
I really admire how Ima took things upon her all this time up to the end for Kuya. She stayed by him all the time in her own special ways. A true 'mother' to him.
I find myself now thinking who would do this, who would do that..but then again, life is a journey sometimes we take turns and find ourselves no where to go but to face tomorrow with a prayer and a positive thinking, "everything will be okay."
His passsing a way was such an eye opener for me we really would not know what's behind the word "tomorrow". We should take every step of our journey the way they should. Do things with pride the way you know you will not regret in the end. I am glad I was able to give him a chance in some way that we haven't been felling bitter towards each other his last stay with us. We got to spend time laughing, talking about life though in a light way. I bet whereever he is now, he is watching over me and Ima in us he found a family. I have always felt thankful and happy for him when the news came - he deserves this rest, he deserves toget the life that's for him. A life with no pain, no sorrow, no hardship - a life with our almighty creator.
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